That's not fair!

That's what I'd say to my mom... And she'd say, "Life's not fair."

Really? I still have a problem with this. In small group, we discussed times when we want what other people have... Like keeping up with the Joneses. I have a friend who always has to have the new toy, or car or house even. I laugh at people like that... But there are times when I wish I had somebody else's faith. Not necessarily the gushy pious kind... Just the kind where I am solid and have no doubts.

I wonder if I am doing enough with my life and if God is pleased. On the other hand, thinking that I'm not doing enough may seem a little uppity. What makes me think I am equipped or meant to do more? I enjoy my work and life. There are parts that need work, of course, but that is probably the case with most people. I guess we're meant to focus on God no matter where we are in life. Paul was in prison and still managed to do that. He could've said, "After all the great work I've done, it's not fair for me to suffer and die in prison." but still he persevered and didn't lose faith. So I guess it's kinda petty of me to think, "I wish I had THAT kind of faith." i need to get off my lazy butt and start seeking Him through His word and prayer. The rest of my faith and life will come together.

They Started Well...

I've been following the Giants during this cactus league spring training, and they started really well...  but the last few games have been pretty bad... especially since Lincecum and Cain were pitching... our two "aces."  I know it doesn't count towards the regular season record, but it makes me worry a bit about how it seems like they're coming apart.

Some folks might consider me a fair weather fan since I just started following them (again) last season.  I skipped the Bonds year, and pretty much most of the years since the baseball strike, and started following these guys.  They just seemed like a great bunch of guys - no superstars, but just a good team when they come together.  Lincecum was not pitching well in July and August when I started watching, and none of the pitchers were throwing well in August... so that's my argument against me being a fair weather fan.  I could've just gave up on them then.  Lincecum didn't start pitching well again until September and I was already hooked by then anyway.

Now I look at my blog record, and I noticed that I "started well" too... and now only blog every once in a blue moon.  Is my faith the same way?  I find so much "good TV" and I'm not reading as much as I ought to...so I have nothing I think about or blog about or pray about.  It probably will get even worse when baseball season officially starts. Hmmm... what shall I do to fix this problem?

MIA

Wow, where have I been?  Just running around between work and everything, I guess.  Don't know if I've "been still" like I wanted to be in my last post... but I have been chatting with God more during my bike rides and dogwalks.  Since gas is skyrocketing again, I've been riding my bike to the transportation center to catch the vanpool to San Ramon.  It's nice and quiet in the mornings.  When I ride home, I go on a bikepath that used to be a railroad track (it's now paved over).  There are a lot of homeless people around, but they are friendly and smile when they see my watermelon helmet.  Makes me thankful for all I'm blessed with.